if you know

What its like to observe from afar
to always have to stand behind a veil
to live in uncertainty
never knowing when minds will change or
if people will see
wondering.......
what happens then

but before then.....
emotions fluctuate and minds go crazy
jealousy peaks and so does curiousity
I dont know what to do

I don't know what all this means to you
but it's overwhelming me
I feel like I'm going deeper and deeper all alone
without some to hold my hand
or tell me that everything will be alright

its not alright.....
cause,
while you are sitting home
in your happy little life
I'm not happy

I'm not happy
and it doesn't matter to you
it doesn't matter
cause I say words you don't hear
and cry tears you don't see
perhaps I feel things you don't feel