Monday, November 27, 2006

Riddle me this....

I am like a storm cloud
dreary and dark
I am without direction
floating around where the wind takes me
I have palpitations
uneven beats which quicken and slows without warning
I am lost
like a blind folded swallow
I am hollow
like the black hole, like a porcelain doll
I am vulnerable
What Am I?

The 5 stages of grief...

We've all seen in on tv,
whether it was on House M.D. or some other series
The 5 stages of grief.....
there's denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance

They said, that people don't have to go through all 5 stages,
neither do they have to go through the stages in sequence
this is just a regular pattern that people come across at some point in their lives.
or maybe, they are some who will never have to

Recently, I have been thinking a lot about these 5 stages
5 stages that one goes through,
when someone dies
when u are about to die
when u lose something dear
so long as there is grief involved....
there will be the words
1. denial
2. anger
3. bargaining
4. depression
5. acceptance

I'm no authority on these emotions
but I do understand it
I have definitely been in denial
been angry,
bargained with myself and perhaps even, the entity out there
may go into depression
and no matter what, still have to accept
acceptance is not an absolution
its just a fact
something that sneaks up and slaps you silly








Wednesday, November 22, 2006

FOR THE REALTORS

A red packet
A nail
some earth
some wood
a fast flowing river

Feng shui for speeding upselling your listing
the owner (or realtor) of the house has to....

get a red envelope (ang pao)

place in a piece of metal from the kitchen (nails???)
earth from the garden (flower pot, garden...)
some wood from the skirting board (chipped wood.....from floor board)
throw the envelope into a fast moving river (er.....manoa stream??)

Being Jack....



Thats Jack from inside the box
No, this is not about the fast food chain......
It's about being....the jack in the box
people always tell you - think outside the box
How can one think outside the box, when all they know is the inside of the box?
the 4" by 4", 64 cubic inches that keeps them in

there is fear
fear of what outside the box
what if, whats outside the box is bad
like waking up from the matrix and realizing that it's worst in reality than in the dream
but what if, it's better than reality
like what dreams may come....
we fear the unknown

rarely do people ever step outside
cause, we're all victims of the box
our comfort zone....
even Jack pops up once in a while



Sunday, November 19, 2006

Jentayu

Di paruhmu kemilauan sinar
Menyepuhi sejuta rasa
Kemulian di hatimu
Bening budi terdampar di jagat raya

Di sayap taufan kau jelajahi
Awan gemawan membawa rindu
Kasihmu menentangi kezaliman
Ketidakadilan

Jentayu
Patah sayap bertongkat paruh
Jentayu
Patah paruh bertongkat siku
Jentayu
Patah siku bertongkat dagu
Jentayu
Patah dagu bertongkat kuku

Pinjamkanlah hatimu
Untuk semua

Pinjamkanlah syahdumu

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

another one for the series

Shu Ling, u were not the most beautiful girl i met,
but u captivated me on a level that surprised even me
the way you carried yourself.....
u seemed so graceful and elegant
your face and your smile seemed so familiar to me,
i felt like i have known you for years.
some people told me it could be life reincarnate,
and that in the last life time i gave you a vow
of love next life
funny stuff huh??

not really,
Like I had said before, it could sound sweet
but it definitely depends on who sent it
and it's not you....
oooooo, ouch..

And.....the series continues.....

Shu Ling, I'm not a greedy person.
I won't ask for more than u can give.
if i can't have you heart,
i am content with just having your friendship.
I could be a true and loyal friend.
i will be there for you.
i will try to pick you up when you are down.
i could comfort and console u
as long as you are true to our friendship i will never forsake u
give me your email so aht i can send you my distant regards once in a while

ok, so normally this would be a really nice message to receive.....
but not under these circumstances....er..

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Happy Birthday Scorpios

According to Cosmopolitan

Scorpios are………

Strengths: Loyal, passionate, seductive

Weaknesses: Jealous, unforgiving

Erotic appeal: you radiate sizzling vibes without trying

one touch and men get a full body shiver

(yeah right…). They just

want to be near you

Must do for 2006: you’re naturally private, but bold

Jupiter inspires you to be more open,

from asking for a raise to telling your

guy what you really want for your

birthday…

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

some pics from October!

Toni and the belly dancers??
Wicked Witch of the west, and homeless boy and a sheep with glasses?
Dancing behind a tree, Indian style
Us girls on salsa night
Group pic on Halloween, Its black, its white....
Our version of.........Wilson

Monday, November 06, 2006

9 crimes


So, I was chatting with my pal online when I realized
she had a song posted up as her nick
Whats with the song? I asked
I'm absolutely obsessed with it, she says
Its so depressing.....
and so it is
with a voice so saddening......


So, here it is, 9 crimes - Damien Rice


Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kinda place
to be thinking of you
It's the wrong time
For somebody new
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse

Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
If you don't shoot it
How am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what i do
It's the wrong kinda place
To be cheating on you
It's the wrong time
but she's pulling me through
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse

Is that alright?
Give my fun away when it's loaded
Is that alright?
If you don't shoot it
how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?

Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?
Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?

No.....

To listen go to
Http://hype.non-standard.net/flash/search/9%20crimes/xml/1/0/results.html

The truth about diamonds

Not too long ago,
I was sitting on my living room floor, cleaning out my tote
searched for my cell phone
found a little surprise along with it.

At the bottom of my cell phone compartment, laid a solitaire ring....
Hmm.......is that what I think it is???
Picked it up, Oh shit....a ring
Not mine, then whose?
Looked again to see if perhaps there's a ....note???
No note.
Ok, so can't be some secret admirers leaving a ring in my bag....or psycho's
How on earth did a ring get into my bag??
I had the bag with me the whole time I was out
left it beside my seat, next to a wall in class,
there was not possible time that something could have fallen
without me knowing.

Anyways, curiousity sets in,
issit real?? hmmm......;)

Searched on the internet about ways to identify a real diamond,
here what I got:

1. The old “If it will scratch glass it has to be a diamond.” Well, it is true that diamonds do scratch glass but so do a lot of the other fakes on the market. To boot, it’s possible to injure your rock even if it’s real during your hardness test.

2. The transparency test. If you flip the diamond in question upside down and place it over some newsprint and can clearly read through the stone, it’s not a diamond. (The problem with this test is some diamonds are cut shallow and can be read through.)

3. The fog test. This test I like a lot. Put the rock in front of your mouth and fog it like you would try to fog a mirror. If it stays fogged for 2-4 seconds, it’s a fake. A real diamond disperses the heat instantaneously so by the time you look at it, it has already cleared up. (A down fall to this test is oil and dirt on the stone can effect its reliability and the test is not accurate at all on doublets where the top of the stone is diamond and the bottom is cubic zirconia epoxied together.)

4. The weight test. The most popular of diamond simulants (fake) is a cubic zirconia. C.Z.’s weigh approximately 55% more than diamonds for the same shape and dimension. So if you have a carat or gram scale at your disposal you can see if the imposter tips the scales too much.

5. The U.V. test. A high percentage of diamonds fluorescence blue when put under an ultra violet light (black light). Since 99% of all fakes don’t, a positive identification of medium to strong blue would indicate a diamond. The bad news is if this method proves you have a diamond, it also proves your diamond is worth less. Diamonds with blue fluorescence are as much as 20% less valuable. Remember, lack of blue fluorescence doesn’t mean it’s a fake; it could just be a better quality diamond.

6. Under the loop test. If you own some sort of magnifying lens, there are some things you can look for on the stone that might give away its identity:

A. Look at the rock from the top and see how well the facets (cuts on top of the diamond) are joined. They should be sharp not rolled.

B. Look at the girdle and see if it is faceted or frosty (a clear sign it’s a diamond) or waxy and slick (an indication it’s a fake).

C. While you’re looking at your stone under magnification, look into your stone to see if you detect any flaws (carbon, pinpoints, small cracks). These are typically clear indications it’s the real thing since it’s very hard to put inclusions in a fake.

D. After examining the stone, focus in on the stamps inside the setting. A stamp of "10K, 14K, 18K, 585, 750, 900, 950, PT, Plat" indicates the setting is real gold or platinum which gives a better chance that the stone in it is real as well. While you’re looking at the interior of the ring, also look for any "C.Z." stamps that would indicate the center stone is not a diamond.

Well, how did the test turn out??
It fogged. Damned piece of glass!
anyhow, learnt something new
possibly useful
you win some, you lose some.....
can't really expect diamonds to fall from the sky, can you?




Sunday, November 05, 2006

On my shirt it says

The saying that made me buy the shirt:
It happens
in an instant
I'll be sitting or standing
or walking
or talking.
I'll be thinking of something,
anything,
nothing at all.
But then,
there you will be
Racing through my mind,
making my heart race.
The very thought of you,
in an instant,
makes me glow.