Its an internal conflict
Part of me wants a decision to be made and yet,
the other part just wants to continue on as is....

going on as it had been means that you'll be around
but, how long can this continue????
making a decision means that I will risk losing you, more than likely

life is just full of choices that we sometimes don't want to make
but eventually, we will have to...
I'm sorry that you have to carry this burden
for I am not brave enough
already it feels like little pieces falling apart
a whole melting pot of emotions happiness, sorrow, love, hate, anger, disappointment, longing
all taking turns expressing themselves inside
one after another

having you around,
makes the sadness bearable
amongst this chaos,
somehow there is a comfort that you provide, makes the shortest nap, peaceful